that I just felt like crying all day. The recipe for the day was there--couldn't fall asleep last night, Harvey teething and waking up throughout the night, cold day with unpermiting weather, no scheduled plans to see anyone, and bad news on the job front yesterday. Brian is also coming home very late tonight so I knew it was going to be a long one.
I tried though, I really did try. This morning Norah and Mama went out for their very own breakfast while Dada stayed home with the H-Bomb. Norah has been really asserting her independence from me these days. And the more I need love from her, the further away she pulls. So, I have been trying to play it really cool (and I am NOT very good at this). When I engage her rather than seek love from her, our interactions go a lot better. So after our little breakfast this morning (Starbucks was the only place on earth open early enough for our breakfast time), we went to CVS and picked up some paint. By the time we go back home, H was down for his first nap and the painting began.
I spent the rest of the day battling exhaustion and the temptation to crumble into a lump of tears on the floor. When the kids woke from their very short naps, I managed to get outside and ran into our incredibly nice neighbor and his neat two year old. We strolled to the park on this very cold, windy day and chatted about everything under the sun--dieting, real estate, teaching, two year olds, etc... I got some much needed respit from my head while we talked.
Tomorrow will be better. Yes. It will.
3 comments:
I didn't fare much better today. They all have colds and Jack was hurling from the mucus every time I nursed him. Dory slept a long time, unexpectedly... while Jack screamed his guts out and refused sleep. My nerves were SHOT when you were posting!
thinking of you, sach. xoxo
sachi --- you made it through a couple of tough couple of days--- don't know how you did it, but you did.
love,
brian
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